Sabado, Abril 15, 2006
went to queensway with ah ting yesterday. got a shoebag and some earrings and an fbt.i suspect and inductively conclude that due to the poor demand of red fbts, only l and xl of the curve version are manufactured now. we like walk the whole queensway and only have those lah, although the black and blue were abundantly found. the demand probably coming only from njcians!and my sister who thinks red fbts are cool.i couldnt find my nice nice shoebag, but made do with another.okay lah, more practical lah since it would probably get super dirty. and like i will clean.then went to gracia's church for campfire. okay lah, not very fun but very meaningful on a personal basis.very timely.and quite cool, their teens all quite united across all groups!
im not liking the is2103 assignment very much.its like BAD.many times i feel like not passing up.seriously.but thanks to all who helped!gross.may i finish it.
nevermind, i think dinner time will be fun!got nice dinner + shopping!yay.
tmr is easter! hope tis and mer will come.may everyone find the true meaning of easter.
im guilty. i've been trying to stay happy, telling everyone to remain positive and cheerful; telling them that everything will be allright.its so easy to talk, but so hard to do.it really is hard.when everything important to you, you are bad at, everything you used to be okay at, is becoming bad too.you look forward to doing nothing but sleep!looking at how everyone just rushes by; so fast, so quick.you're still left standing there, so surreal. your brain and you disconnected. you have no idea whats going to happen in that bleak future, surely not something good.the present is already bad.its hard.you wonder how you'll ever make through, how you can even get there. then you realise, all these are trival. for i know who's in control, who's holding my hand and carrying me on. sure, i may face countless pressures, experience endless failures and screw like im a screwdriver; but he knows best.yet i selfishly worry about such little matters; when the whole world is in turmoil.the earth wnt stop rotating, sun wnt stop shining just cos things are caving in.grant me perfect peace.and i just hope i'll be strong till the trumphet sounds.
sometimes, you thought. but in your imperfection, there is something you never could comprehend. its beautiful as you look back. its marvellous as you ponder. amazing as you reflect.
thank you Lord, for giving up everything for someone like me.for eternity, i praise you. for you, i live and have my breath.cos everything just fades off.
struggling; but failing. and, its gone.
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